I am so sick of living for flesh. My heart grasps, reaches, scratches for what is fulfilling but achieves nothing.I find myself lost in a dark pit of nothingness. The world pretends to be the answer, it tells us that lust will fill us. But no, it is only the desire, empty and unfulfilled. I want love, true and pure, without fear. For I deserve to be loved. God has placed the desire to seek Him within me, He has shown me the path, yet I do not take it. Why? Stepping towards that path, I hesitate. I do not want to feel dirty, wrong, unworthy. It has been said, I am chosen. Ephesians 1:5
My feet move slowly dragging with shame. Break it off, Lord. Once more show me your light. Cut the darkness out. I want to fly free, worshiping the one whom I love. Let my spirit soar unhindered. I have been called to a greater purpose. Fear has no grip on me for I am God's. Years ago I prayed for God to take a hold of my heart and that is exactly what He did. He has never let me go, even in those dark moments of lust. God knew that I would stumble but He also knows that I will get back up. The one who believes in me fully deserves for me to believe in Him fully as well. He wants to see me dance before Him in pure and beautiful worship.
You're love overcame the grave surely you will break every chain!
I will run towards you, God.
