In need of new filtration system.

What you need to hear won't always be what you want to hear. This seems to be the message for this week. Actually, this saying is always true! God has recently been showing me this importance of not causing strife. For many reasons, I will unknowingly pick fights with people. It is a reaction to what ever stress is going on in my life but is harmful to my surroundings. Do I deep down want to destroy my relationships? No! And so I have been working on this bad habit to preserve future relations with my family and friends. This self discipline for some reason is rather difficult because the moment that I open my mouth, the words simply flow out. How do I prevent this? Lots of prayer, practice and apologies. Meditating on God's word, letting it soak in.

Want to hear the good news? God likes me! He knew everything about me (past, present and future) and still genuinely likes me. Weird, right? Well, it's the same for you too! Most people know that God loves you (John 3:16 being the most popular verse in the Good Book) but not that he likes you. He wants to see you succeed!

Stepping off the boat.

It's very hard to obey God when you are caught up in fear. But if I don't know God I will be forever unhappy. There is no way that I can live without Him. I will never be able to reach my full potential without His gentle guidance! I must ask now for your forgiveness for not living in the way that God has asked me to.

Right now I choose to take the next step though I am afraid. I still believe that His thoughts towards me are good. Starting tomorrow, Friday the 13th of April, I will begin a Fast. I made a promise to spend time in God's word and in worship everyday no matter for how long. I have allowed myself to lose sight of God in many areas of my life. I spend hours in front of a screen, waiting for my crops to grow or watching someone else fulfilling their goals. Unfortunately, I have squandered much of the time that God has given me but not any longer.

I will be spending the next several weeks seeking God's face with all my heart!